Could it be for real!!??

I bravely stepped on the scale this morning... It read 110lbs!!!!!!!??? Yesterday at the gym I was 113lbs on their scale. It was night and I had clothing on. Could I seriously have lost 3lbs? I'm going to weigh in again at the gym and compare the numbers. 110lbs would be FN fabulous!! I mean, I know it's probably a lot of water weight but WHATEVER! I'll take it lol!

Yesterday went pretty well ;) I only consumed coffee, 3 little cookies (under 200 calories), and of course WATER! It wasn't healthy food but I'm still pleased with the calorie intake. I went to the gym and did a yoga class for an hour, did some strength training on my legs and ass, and took a steam. It was Divine but not enough exercise :( I really should have done some cardio! Fuck! Got to make it up today...Damn it!

Today feels as if it will be another "good" day! I woke up without panic for once! I'm happily sipping my coffee and getting my caffeine buzz on. The agenda for the day is major restriction and I'm most definitely hitting the gym for cardio, pilates, and yoga! Oh yeah, I MUST DRINK MORE WATER!! My water intake is pathetic!

The count down to returning back to CA and my hubby is beyond close.....6 FREAKIN DAYS!!!!! I've come to terms, that I'm not returning with my GW. That doesn't mean I'm giving up however! I'll lose as much as humanly possible and when I get home I'll continue! I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I have so much to do before I leave and it's overwhelming me beyond belief! How the hell am I supposed to get all my belongings back in 1 suitcase and a carry on? I'm a clothing whore and refuse to leave my treasures behind! Geesh, my make up alone needs it's own suitcase lol! This shall be interesting!

Wish me luck..hehe
Hope you lovelies are well!!!
xo

Once again I broke even...Fast Post

This will be short and sweet...I'm in a bit of a time crunch....

Still 113lbs....ARGG!! Once again I binged like a little food whore!! I worked out like a mad women, so I didn't gain but didn't lose. DAMN IT!

Today I went to the gym and did 1hour and 15 min. in a cardio class, 1 hour and 15 min. on weights, and 40 min. on the treadmill. It felt freakin fantastic!! I'm bummed I didn't get any yoga in today :( Oh well, tomorrow. I'm doing fabulous with calories, as long as I keep it up for the rest of the day! I basically have 9 days left to lose WEIGHT....FML! I know I'm not going to lose 13lbs in time but that is not going to stop me from trying! I'm still smoking ciggs here and there :/ Oppsies..hehe!

Hope you dolls are doing fantastic!!! Thanks for all the kind words and reality check!
xo

 

recovering once again from a binge :/

Last night's binge did in fact make me gain :( When I weighed in at the gym today it was 115lb...I'm pretty sure it'll go back to 113lbs tomorrow??? The gym went fantastic!!! I did an hour and 15 min. Vinyasa yoga class, 30 min. on the elliptical, and a Kiryo yoga class for another hour and 15 min. Calories on the other hand have not been so fantastic. I have consumed 800 already and I'm STOPPING right NOW!!! I just have to be "good" the rest of the night, have some laxie tea and finish off my liter water bottle!

AHHH, the whole time at the gym I was comparing bodies again.....it drives me mad and fills me with jealousy!!!


Nightie Night Luv's
xo

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So, I weighed in at the gym today...113lbs(clothes on)!!!! IDK if my scale was broken or I lost 3 pounds but I'll take it!!! Thank goodness, 116lbs was overwhelming me!!! I did a Vinyasa yoga class for an hour and 15 min. on the elliptical :/ I wish I would have done more!! The whole gym trip I checked out other women's bodies....I'm not bi really, I'm just body obsessed!! It's pathetic but passes the time lol! It is also motivation while your working out!! I haven't eaten anything yet but have drank a venti coffee with a bit of milk from Starbucks. I'm still riding a bit of a caffeine buzz! I have my group therapy tonight :/ I never want to go but once I get dolled up and there, I end up having a nice time! I'm going to present my level 4 tonight! Besides, it passes the time from 5-8pm and no food is involved! There are also 2 smoke breaks...I quit but I may just have one for therapy! Wish me luck! I'm off to doll up and obsess about my appearance....

Okay back on track!

Yes, things seem to be going back on track! That means ana can get back to working her devious magic and I can return to my teeny body. This blob I have been living in these past months is NOT me! It's beyond confusing even to me!?? I'm over the moon pleased with yesterday :) but I will not weigh in today. I MUST resist. I'll weigh in on Monday morning (fingers crossed). It can't be worse then the last weigh in...it just can't be : /

Picking out clothes just to go to the gym is a nightmare now! I'm not used to having to hide a roll on my tummy and blubbery thighs. I cant wear my yoga clothing, I'm just too freakin BIG! I forgot to mention my run in at the gym yesterday...OMG....I ran into a high school best friend. THE ONE THAT MY HUSBAND KISSED!!! It was early in our relationship ( few weeks) and I was out of town. He went to the hot tub with all our friends and ended up having a kiss with HER!!!! To make matters worse this girl is gorgeous! no joke, stunning and beyond thin. Model thin! So, there she was. We had to hug and play nice. She got my number and said we should have coffee. FML! Well, it just motivated me to get thinner!!!

The goal for the day; get my caffeine fix, gym (yoga class and 1 hour of cardio), sauna (maybe sweat out some toxins and water weight), eat the rest of yesterdays salad only, drink a liter of water, laxative tea before bed......so eventful lol!

UPDATE
I got the caffeine fix...a cup of nasty black coffee from my moms and a delish triple shot of espresso from Starbucks! I went to the yoga class....it was way too easy but I got a fantastic stretch and adored the instructor. At the end of the class she has you take a bead to symbolize the good thing you did for yourself! I'm going to the classes for the bead and a good stretch lol! Argg, cardio did not go so well : / I only did 12 min. on the elliptical machine : (  I also didn't take a sauna :( I got more salad at Whole Foods!! That's all I've been munching on...oh yeah, I also had a KIND meal bar : / As long as I stop eating now (6pm), I'll be okay! I have been horrid about water....my liter bottle has a ton left but I"ll down it :) I'm going to drink the laxative tea later tonight :) I'll the greens should really help!
Tomorrow is going to be even better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UPDATE...things are going better!

Okay, yesterday was spent throwing up the night before that binge!!!! I literally was sick all day until late evening...I smoked a bowl and ate a subway veggie sub on honey oat bread, no cheese, and sweet onion sauce :/  It wouldn't have been to bad if I stopped there, but that was not so....Mom surprised me with 2 little bags of my fav chocolate Easter eggs! I ate both bags of course :( So The day was pretty much a fail!

Today was better :) I woke up early and went to the gym!!! I did a Body Pump class, which is strength training with barbells! Then I did a cardio/aerobics class!!! I managed to squeeze in almost 15 min. on the elliptical machine. To end the workout I did a intro to Pilate's class!! It felt freakin fantastic!! When I got home I smoked a bowl and when I got the munchies I picked at a salad that  I made at the Wholefoods salad bar!! I still have tons left for tomorrow! All and all a pretty bitchin day!!! I'm pleased :) Tomorrow I plan on going back to the gym and eating only eating the rest of my salad! Oh yeah I had 3 shots of expresso and a medium coffee with cream :/ CAFFEINE! OPPSIES!

HERE I COME TEENY BODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!