Recovering from the cookie binge

Yup I screwed up yesterday with a damn cookie binge...10-12 oreos!!!! I was doing so well. I don't know how I could have let it happen!! My little brother came home with groceries, cookies being one of them! I resisted while my mom and brother ate them. I felt so in control, powerful, and above them for not giving into the temptation and then before I know it, I'm stuffing them down my throat!! I wasn't even hungry and oreos are not my fav!! WHY!!????? My water consumption yesterday was poor as well :( I probably had 30-40oz!

 I keep saying it but I'M BACK ON TRACK TODAY!! I can't fail again...I just don't have enough time before returning home to Cali! I drank senna tea last night so that helped get some of the nasty waste out...now I wish I would have done a double dose of it!! I've already had a good BM this morning though :) To make up for last night's cookie binge I'm going to have to do extra cardio today at the gym. I'm going to skip the classes and head straight for the cardio machines! I'll get a good caffeine fix and burn my ass off!!!!! As for food, salad only and then of course a liter of water!! A dose of seena tea will be my night cap!

I'm dreading weighing in tomorrow...I don't feel I've made much progress or lost :( At least I'll know where I'm at.
UPDATE
I just hit my Mom's gold mine! Her pain killers! She has been hiding them from me and I just so happened to find them!!! I know, I'm horrid but if you knew the women you would understand! Anyways, I took a handful and ate three 5mg pills. I should be feelin pretty good here soon! The pills will help keep the hunger at bay but may make it hard to go to the gym....I'm thinking today will be all about starving...IDK just yet...???
UPDATE
I have been enjoying my opiate numb out and chain smoking like an old Hollywood actress. I don't see a workout in today's future : / I haven't consumed a single calorie and it's almost 5pm!!! Very pleased indeed!! Sense I'm not going to be working out I will just nibble on yesterday's Whole Foods salad. The bad news is I haven't been drinking WATER!! I don't know why this is hard for me!? I just can't seem to get a liter in daily!!

Okay back on track!

Yes, things seem to be going back on track! That means ana can get back to working her devious magic and I can return to my teeny body. This blob I have been living in these past months is NOT me! It's beyond confusing even to me!?? I'm over the moon pleased with yesterday :) but I will not weigh in today. I MUST resist. I'll weigh in on Monday morning (fingers crossed). It can't be worse then the last weigh in...it just can't be : /

Picking out clothes just to go to the gym is a nightmare now! I'm not used to having to hide a roll on my tummy and blubbery thighs. I cant wear my yoga clothing, I'm just too freakin BIG! I forgot to mention my run in at the gym yesterday...OMG....I ran into a high school best friend. THE ONE THAT MY HUSBAND KISSED!!! It was early in our relationship ( few weeks) and I was out of town. He went to the hot tub with all our friends and ended up having a kiss with HER!!!! To make matters worse this girl is gorgeous! no joke, stunning and beyond thin. Model thin! So, there she was. We had to hug and play nice. She got my number and said we should have coffee. FML! Well, it just motivated me to get thinner!!!

The goal for the day; get my caffeine fix, gym (yoga class and 1 hour of cardio), sauna (maybe sweat out some toxins and water weight), eat the rest of yesterdays salad only, drink a liter of water, laxative tea before bed......so eventful lol!

UPDATE
I got the caffeine fix...a cup of nasty black coffee from my moms and a delish triple shot of espresso from Starbucks! I went to the yoga class....it was way too easy but I got a fantastic stretch and adored the instructor. At the end of the class she has you take a bead to symbolize the good thing you did for yourself! I'm going to the classes for the bead and a good stretch lol! Argg, cardio did not go so well : / I only did 12 min. on the elliptical machine : (  I also didn't take a sauna :( I got more salad at Whole Foods!! That's all I've been munching on...oh yeah, I also had a KIND meal bar : / As long as I stop eating now (6pm), I'll be okay! I have been horrid about water....my liter bottle has a ton left but I"ll down it :) I'm going to drink the laxative tea later tonight :) I'll the greens should really help!
Tomorrow is going to be even better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!