Good Morning Dolls!

Well, I'm still FN 113lbs. Again, DAMN IT! My count down to losing weight and returning home to CA, is not going as planned :( I only have a week now to lose before I fly back. Realistically I know it's impossible to lose 113lbs. I mean it's science and common sense! If I could at least lose 3lbs and get down to 110lbs, I suppose I could live with that in the time being. 3lbs is VERY doable! More is encouraged of course! I'm just going to have to dress "smart". Wear adorable clothing still but adorable clothing that hides FAT! Things like flowy sundresses! I live on a beach in a hippy town. You can totally get away with the boho chic look( I adore fashion and clothing). I'll just keep working my ass off with exercise and restriction and get right back down to my goal weight! I can't wait to start race walking on the beach again :) I'm going to keep this positive attitude up and hold on to it with dear life!

As fo today, I've been lazy all morning....Watching TV and glued to , the lappy top! My Salsa class and NIA class is not until this evening, so I'm hitting the gym later in the evening. Their is a Vinyasa Flow class but IDK if my soar body can do it?? I really hope so! The sauna is on the agenda as well. I just adore a good steam! I LOVE HOW WARM IT IS!!! I've consumed a McDonald's large coffee with 2 creams and 1 splenda (IDK the cals??). I'll have a little something before the gym ( really I'll just end up drinking a energy drink lol)! After the gym a little mini fast! That's the plan but it always seems to change. We shall see what my neurotic brain chooses!

OMG! I really can't believe I'm going home. It's starting to set in that I can no longer hide and isolate! I'm going back to my life. Back to reality! It scares the sh*t out of me! I'm overwhelmed and nervous. Anxiety is dwelling in me. Just getting a job is overwhelming to me! That's pathetic but I've got to be strong! I CAN DO THIS!

Any who, HAPPY MONDAY...I adore Monday's because it's the beginning of the week and a fresh start. A clean slate :) Hope you dolls are doing fabulous! Thanks again for the comments! They really make my day...xo

Once again I broke even...Fast Post

This will be short and sweet...I'm in a bit of a time crunch....

Still 113lbs....ARGG!! Once again I binged like a little food whore!! I worked out like a mad women, so I didn't gain but didn't lose. DAMN IT!

Today I went to the gym and did 1hour and 15 min. in a cardio class, 1 hour and 15 min. on weights, and 40 min. on the treadmill. It felt freakin fantastic!! I'm bummed I didn't get any yoga in today :( Oh well, tomorrow. I'm doing fabulous with calories, as long as I keep it up for the rest of the day! I basically have 9 days left to lose WEIGHT....FML! I know I'm not going to lose 13lbs in time but that is not going to stop me from trying! I'm still smoking ciggs here and there :/ Oppsies..hehe!

Hope you dolls are doing fantastic!!! Thanks for all the kind words and reality check!
xo

 

Broke even

Sorry for being MIA lately :/ I was off binging and isolating. Luckily I broke even and didn't gain any weight. Still 113lbs. I just found out I have 2 weeks to lose weight before returning home to CA!!! I would like to get down to 100lbs but IDK if losing 13lbs in 2 weeks is realistic. I'm going to do my very best however! Yesterday went Fabulous! I only drank a bit of a Red Bull!! I'm not exactly sure how many cals but I don't believe it was more then 100! I didn't workout as much as I would have liked but I managed to get 20 min. on the elliptical in, a Pilate's class, and a Hatha yoga class in! It was all a bit too easy but really relaxing :) I did wake up feeling a little lighter and my tummy bloat went down a bit! Today I'm going back to the gym to do more cardio and classes!! I'm just going to do the same as yesterday and consume as little cals possible! Okay, the count down begins. I have some serious weight to lose and only 12 days/two weeks to lose it!! I'm kinda excited to see how much I can lose :/ it's that sick and twisted excited. My gym membership runs out on the 31st, so I'm without the gym the 1st-3nd :( I hate working out at home but I'll have to make do.

I also went to thearapy yesterday. I really really didn't want to go but was glad when I did. I always come out of it better then I went in. Anyways, we discussed me moving back and I lied my ass off saying I was much better...blah blah blah...She ate it up. She gives me the best tips to calm my anxiety and understand myself. I'll miss our sessions. Same with my group thearapy sessions. When I return home I have no health insurance! IDK what the hell I'm going to do for thearapy and meds!!

I'll check back in later doll's!